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When someone says they want to hurt themselves, it's not that they want the attention. They really need help. It's not a joke when it comes to life or death. Most people that I know would never guess that at one point, I've tried to end my life. As a result of past generational emotional hurts as a child, I developed these feelings of anxiety and depression. Throughout high school and college, I had a hard time making healthy emotional connections. I felt worthless because I thought, "Well, if my parents don't want me, then who else is going to want me?" I was broken and reached a point of no return. And so I felt hopeless and I had to end my life because it was very painful. I just couldn't do it anymore. Luckily, I ended up surviving the attempt. And when I got to church, the bishop and other people noticed that something was wrong, and so they suggested that I needed to go to the hospital. And I ended up staying there for a few days until everything was a little bit more stable. When thinking about suicide, things are very foggy. It's very dark and feels like there's no way out because there's so much pain. And with that pain, you just focus on that one solution, which is taking my life. To call someone who is attempting suicide as selfish is really not OK because there are other things that they're struggling with. And so they just didn't wake up one morning and say, "Oh, I want to attempt suicide." No, it's the state of being. Just because we can't see what someone is thinking or going through, it doesn't mean that they don't need help. To someone who is struggling, I would definitely say, please reach out. There's always someone there who is willing to listen. There are crisis hotlines that you can call that are free, and they are definitely open to talking to you 24/7. Now, also talk to someone that you trust. My healing began after talking to my bishop. He recommended that I see a therapist. My therapist was very helpful in helping me see the state of my mental health. For me, healing means to have that faith that while the challenges are still there, that gradually over time, I'll either learn to live with my challenges and then finally be released of it, whether in this life or in the next life. Whenever I feel down, I just look back and know that Heavenly Father has blessed me with gifts to be able to bless others and that I'm needed in this world. I felt that the Savior made it so I'm still here. And so because of that, I'm eternally grateful that He wants me here and to fulfill my purpose as a mom and wife. I remember having that longing, since being single, that "someday I'm going to be a mom and a wife." And I prayed Heavenly Father for that. And so just imagine me not being here--those dreams would not have been fulfilled. And I will be eternally grateful for that.

Princess’s Story: After a Suicide Attempt

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Video: A young woman talks about finding hope and a reason to live.
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