I was divorced two years ago, and becoming a single mom was really, really difficult in a lot of ways. I don't think people realize how lonely it feels, juggling everything. You definitely feel different. In public, I think, especially whether it's school events or just walking around the grocery store or at church, you feel different, and it's a very lonely feeling. You don't feel like you're enough. You think, "I've failed my kids. I have failed my parents, my family. Maybe I've even failed God." And it's just sort of a dark space that you're in and you're walking through. And it kind of just keeps going on and on. And you wonder, like, "When is the light going to break through?" I remember a specific day. I was taking a friend to the airport, and it was raining. And I was already feeling really scared about my future and nervous about what's to come. And I turned a corner, and there was this beautiful rainbow in the sky. It was so vibrant, and it was just so beautiful. As I looked at it, I remember feeling just really calm and very peaceful and, in those moments, sort of recognizing that peace. So I started to search out the meaning of rainbows and found out that they mean peace and prosperity. And it's kind of God's little message to me in that moment, especially. So even to this day, my son draws rainbows on all of his schoolwork. And every time I see it, it reminds me that no matter how fearful I might be of the future, I don't really know what life is going to look like. Or when I do feel lonely, peace comes and the rainbows come. And there have been those moments when it's almost like, you know, I'll say a little prayer in my mind or something. And the day just gets a little easier, or I'll feel a little more supported. It's just a feeling that I get. But I know that He's there and He's helping me; He's working with me.
So this is my life. Is it ready yet? This is what single parenting is. Not yet. Oh.
[INAUDIBLE] And never getting a moment alone. Yeah, I will. Can you give me a kiss? Thank you.