“I Can Still Hear Grandmother’s Visions,” Ensign, Mar. 1984, 56
I Can Still Hear Grandmother’s Visions
Eliza R. Snow Poetry Contest Winner First Place
I can still hear grandmother’s visions
rocking
back and forth
the floorboards and the rockerbands
curled in a perfect motion
her fingers in and out my braids
or needle-eye that got too small too soon
her finger-wrapped tapping
the pen-point
against the pages of her life
there in her lap
that made room for me
for the stories
of times past and times to come—I can hear them
rocking back and forth—visions
I called them that I cannot quite remember now
though I can still feel
their motion
rocking quickly like the sound of thread sewing
through the cloth of my grandmother’s life
stitching her truth to me—a common thread
good for seams and patches
winding itself
echoing through time kept to the beat of spindles
and treadles rocking
threading through candlelit nights and backbreaking labor
of children lost and raised,
lives painstakingly,
anciently woven and spun
cut and pieced and sewn the length of my identity
by grandmother’s dreams, by her stories
where women, looking for Light
and finding it
were clothed in the garments of God’s Holy Love
and bound to Him and to each other in Nauvoo,
in Council Bluffs, in a hundred other frontier places—
bound by a common thread, a gesture
passed mother to daughter, sister to sister, friend
to friend.
A pattern
worn into my life
by the constant heartbeat
rocking back and forth
of my grandmother’s visions.