“Gathering Apples,” New Era, Aug. 1986, 25
Gathering Apples
Holding to the last shreds of sleep
I hugged the top mast and searched for whales,
while diving seagulls, white wedges of light,
rocked the air. Then the snap of wet sails
gave way to the ring of my mother’s voice
and I awoke. My room was gray,
the open window breathing September mist,
and my blue oceaned dreams lay
irretrievable behind my eyes.
Above me, in the kitchen, I could hear
stockinged feet sliding on wood,
the whistle of steam, the scrape of a chair.
I found Mother at the sink peeling
apples, the thin skin of a Jonathan
sliding away from the blade
in a sliver as red as morning sun.
“I need more apples,” Mother said,
pushing back her hair and laying
the peeled globe in a bowl. Barefoot,
I went out the back, across the porch, hurrying
into the mist. The orchard stood
to the east of the house: two Golden
Delicious trees, a gnarled Roman,
a stunted Winesap, and the Jonathan
whose longest branches brushed kitchen glass
when the wind blew. I climbed until
my ninety-three pounds nearly buckled
young branches. Far below, the window sill
held daisies spotted gold with kitchen light.
Everything else was mist—the hills
were distant swells, the barn a floating crag,
the crows winging from the windmill’s
tower were like gulls lifting from a sail.
And in the north field, I saw a school
of sea lambs floating through haze,
heads erect, their ghost faces a warm pool
of white. I hugged the tree-mast tighter
against the breeze, while my mother,
shimmery through glass, like a misty
figure head, pointed to an unseen shore.